‘Not Scared Crow’ – Day 304/365 – R1900

‘Not Scared Crow’ – Day 304/365 – R1900

Sale Price of Original: R1900

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Inspiration: artist’s own


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🎃Happy Hippy Halloween Everyone!🎃
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The last 7 days of reflection about scary reasons not to pursue your creative path have, in a strange way given me one final realisation, and to me, this one felt a bit like a gift from the universe.
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The scariest reason behind pursuing your creative path is the willingness to believe that your worth lies in that one idea you can’t stop thinking about.

And do it despite what all the “that’s not a real job” boogie monsters say.
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As Cheryl Strayed puts it. “Trusting yourself means acting out what you already know to be true.”

‘High Stakes’ – Day 303/365 – R1900

‘High Stakes’ – Day 303/365 – R1900

Sale Price of Original: R1900

(artist retains all rights to print reproductions of this painting)
Inspiration: artist’s own and common licence photography


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The final reason in my 7 day Halloween Inspired countdown to not pursue your creative path.
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Reason No 1. What if the tedium kills me?
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This might sound like a strange one at first, but let me share 2 quick things about me that will help you understand where this fear came from.
1. I overthink things to a very deep level – and thus I can sort of envision or live quite far into a scenario before any of it has actually happened.
2. I get bored very easily. Not in the ‘there’s nothing to do sense’ – there is ALWAYS so much that could be done. Rather in the ‘once I’ve gotten a sense of something or figured it out’ I want to move onto the next challenge.
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So I foresaw the pockets of time where it would just be a matter of sticking to it and plodding along, itchy feet be damned. And that was scary for me – not being able to bolt in another direction.
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But tedium doesn’t kill. Dracula does a lot of waiting around, also in a fairly confined box. But you know what does kill him? A stake through the heart. The stake being the less fulfilling job you stay in wishing you were in the box of your craft. Because even when you’re dealing with some tedium at least its a tedium of your choosing.
The super macabre analogy that gets you through it is drinking up the blood that is your creative life force. .
I think that’s kind of cool – you keep you alive. You doing you keeps your heart beating.
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And so far, the really awesome connections and awakenings I’ve had through this painting challenge totally see me through the days where I’m just bored and over it AF. 😜

‘Break Free’ – Day 302/365 – R1900

‘Break Free’ – Day 302/365 – R1900

Sale Price of Original: R1900

(artist retains all rights to print reproductions of this painting)
Inspiration: artist’s own and common licence photography


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Reason No 2. on the Halloween inspired countdown of Scary Reasons not to Pursue your Creative Path and how to face them.⁠
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What if I can’t pull it off and somehow fail miserably and publically at that?⁠
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First off – define failing for yourself. For me it wasn’t not posting a painting a day – my commitment and self-determination levels to do a thing, once decided upon, are pretty intense. ⁠
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For me failing meant posting a painting that I did not think met any standards of ‘good’. I have stupid AF standards of perfection – crippling at times. Those are hard for me to accept, but also good for me to practice kindness to myself over.⁠
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Here’s what I realised. If I or you should ‘fail’ and in the case of something like a public daily challenge, fail in front of other people, reality’s response would be different to the fear in my head.⁠
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Fear in my head says hundreds of humans are going to point and laugh and ridicule your pathetic attempt. (awful but sound familiar?)⁠
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Reality is by far more awesome.⁠
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In reality, if you ‘fail’ or just decide to stop because it’s no longer for you (which is also hella cool and hella brave), then hundreds of people will have seen you try something.⁠
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We all just want to be loved and acknowledged and recognised for who we are. You sitting up to do your creative thing – no matter how far you get or how it unfolds, will not ever lead to public failure. It will lead to public truth. You sharing your journey of creative pursuit will cultivate a two way street of inspiration – and it really will not matter which branches fall off in the process. ⁠
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Just that you broke free and planted your creative tree.⁠
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Lone Road’ – Day 301/365 – R1900

Lone Road’ – Day 301/365 – R1900

Sale Price of Original: R1900

(artist retains all rights to print reproductions of this painting)
Inspiration: artist’s own and common licence photography


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Scary Reason No 3 not to pursue your creative path:⁠
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Having to say ‘no’ to all the social life stuff (and the hidden sub reason – not actually having the discipline to control your fomo)⁠
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This is probably not so much a scary reason or legitimate internal creative fear as a vapid reason your ego manufactures as a reason because the previous reasons are too scary to deal with.⁠
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Luckily the daily implementation of pursuing your creative path will, in a weird way, solve this hesitation one for you. You soon won’t have the funds to splurge on your social life.🤣⁠
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And no bucks in the bank essentially forces you to have the self-discipline to say no. 😂 You quickly realise what’s essential. But there’s no way around it – pursuing your creative path can be a fairly lonely road to walk. Don’t think of it as killing off your social life – you’re just mummifying yourself for a while. At some point, you’ll be able to unravel your cocoon again. The hibernating internal transformation will all have been worthwhile. And true friends will understand. 🙏🏼⁠

‘Grim’ – Day 299/365 – R1900

‘Grim’ – Day 299/365 – R1900

Sale Price of Original: R1900

(artist retains all rights to print reproductions of this painting)
Inspiration: artist’s own and common licence photography


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Fook Me – today was another emotionally taxing one.⁠

Right, continuing the countdown of Scary Reasons not to Pursue Your Creative Path and how to face dem monsters.⁠

Reason no. 5:⁠

Having “wasted time” or worse “wasted your life” pursuing something that might never become anything more.⁠

We often feel this way – if things don’t progress in a chronological upward curve then it was a “waste of time”. But the Grim Reaper will tell you the true death of your life was in the time you spent putting off pursuing your creative curiosities and carries the ultimate penance – regret. And that’s a grim thing indeed.⁠
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Besides, as John Lennon says it (and I’m paraphrasing here time you’ve enjoyed “wasting”, is not wasted time after all.⁠

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