‘Go To Your Centre’ – Day 179/365

‘Go To Your Centre’ – Day 179/365

I had absolutely zero desire to paint today. The resistance was strong.⁠
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At one point I thought I’d paint the whole canvas blue with three tiny birds and call it a day. I almost did. But then I imagined looking at today’s painting a year from now and how all it would make me think was that that was the day I took a shortcut. And shortcuts is not why I’m doing this. I don’t want to get through it by just “getting it over with”.⁠
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What I want is to be a better me. And to somehow have that make a difference to the world. ⁠
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Last night, talking to a friend about life overwhelm an idea passed through me. Anyway, I told this friend that “you being you is how the universe heals itself. You are her white blood cells. You just have to trust that you doing what you know to do best, will eventually be for the greater good.”⁠
I was soo grateful that thought chose to whisper through me.⁠
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So all I had to be, as a little universal white blood cell, was BE an artist. SHOW up for myself. So, I put on my apron, even though I didn’t want to paint. And I put on my feather earing, even though I didn’t feel like a creative.⁠
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And then I sat down to paint this little moment of myself walking a labyrinth in Hong Kong, because this was what I wanted to remember. That today I chose to do something that would take me closer to my centre, not further away.⁠
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It’s not a finished painting. And it’s not taken in the world’s best light. ⁠
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But still, it’s better than a flat, blue sky. It’s better than ‘getting it over with’. And yes, you damn well can be proud of your lesser achievements if they stand for better intentions.⁠
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That’s a white blood cell, fighting the good fight.⁠

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